materialistic? naaa...its a gift!

nice! but... kotornye!

ok2, I've got a pair of pumps shoe. its like flat but..hmm later on la describe. aku bkn na jual kasut. smlm ternampak that shoes and its like... "whoa..ni kasut bundle ke?"

so, aku decided utk basuh die smlm. eventhough aku tau pumps shoes mcm ni kalau basuh konfem tapak tak tahan lame. by that time, konfem jd mulut kt depan die skali kn. stp langkah, ternganga2 la kasut tu. well I guess, semua org penah melaluinye. kasut kalau kene air cmtu la jadinya. unless we're wearing kasut Phua Chu Kang.

mase tgh sental2 tu, biase la kan. feeling sorg2 dlm bilik air and reminds me of something. it happened when I was in Sarawak. that time aku tgh cuci my sport shoe. sport shoe cap XiangXiang. for serius. aku beli rm20 sepasang. na pakai buat lasak2, pegi kawad kesatria katanya.

then, my ex si taufiq call but aku tak jwb. he got angered and text me. "why dont pikap my call la and bla bla bla". derhhh. bongok betul tak bole saba. then bila jumpa I told him that I was sibuk gila sental kasut sukan dlm toilet.

mebi sbb die terlalu kaya n dont knw wht to do with his bed of money, he brought me to parkson kuching and verangan na belikan aku sport shoe puma. but at that time, I love more my XiangXiang shoe. *bodonya aku*

after argued for a moment, he obeyed. ok pasrah mungkin sbb gepren die bodoh tanak kasut puma. trust me, mase aku type post ni, I was damn regret sbb tak amik kasut tu. nice shoe, blue color as I remembered. same goes to vincci handbag. mcm na gila die na belikan, but I refused. coz its too expensive. rm150 tu mahal sgt bg aku. but bg die mcm rm50 je kot?

but the stories didn't end yet. weekend tu, ada bungkusan sampai and I've got to take it kat HEP. duk ostel kan. segala bungkusan kene sign and isi form kat HEP. yeaarite whteve.

aku tgk2, aitt address pengirim dr sarawak? wth? da tak bole bg by hand? kene post? such a waste. aku bkak, see. I told you. to be honest, my ex si taufiq ni very lovable person and always dgn surprise yg damn fucking romantic. but as I told you, he's already be an EX.

he really don't like jimat2 dlm benda2 yg buat kite comfortable. it happens several times when aku na cari gam kasut sbb na fix kasut, aku cuci kasut sbb kasut koto sgt2. aku na jahit baju sikit sbb ade koyak ke. die tak suka kerja2 cmtu. bg die, once broken consider byebye. beli baru. and it spoiled me. BUT, I'm not such materialistic. I've been told to appreciate things including person unless barang tu da rosak sgt. org rosak pun aku get rid jugak! hiks.

pap! I was shocked. tersental kuat plak pump shoe ni. ouchhh. mmg na hampir ternganga da pun kasut tu. enough sental. I turn to kasut lg sebelah. sental punya sental, it reminds me to my another ex.

kalau arul, die asal bole. kalau bole cuci, cuci lah. sbb he knew me so well. coz he's just like me. jimat. for us, jimat is not kedekot. its a thrill. its like, kasut koyak, I will asked him to bring me to shop and beli gam kasut. then he helped me to fix the shoes.

mcm ade skali tu beli2 baju, baru perasan baju tu koyak. not koyak la, getah lengan die putus kat dlm. so, kalau taufiq mesti die suruh hantar kedai or beli je baju laen. but to him, die ade suggest hantar kedai gak. but aku na jahit sndri. sbb na pakai cepat. HAHA. for me, thrill jahit sndri tu an effort to show how much I appreciate that things coz he bought that dress for me.

and trust me, he was so excited to know the progress. hahha. and I was so excited to tell him that I was succeed fixed it! hahaha. nampak mcm bodoh kan? tp moment tu special sgt. tu yg buat kami serasi kot? but to be honest what I missed bout him, die tak lokek.

die tau aku jenis jimat as well as die. and die tau jgak aku jenis syg barang as well as aku syg die time tu. but when it comes to new things, die takkan bising wlpun die tau aku ade kasut yg byk, aku ade handbag yg byk. if aku like sumthing, he will buy for me. immediately sometimes.

arul mmg tak pandai langsung surprise. but its ok for me coz he knew what I liked, and he bought it. that was a surprised for me. and trust me, if he know aku basuh kasut ni, mesti die tnye bersih tak kasut tu. hahah. but if I ask for a suggestion for new shoes, I mean I will buy it by myself. without regret, he will buy for me. and same goes to such handbag. if he knew I loved that pattern of bag, he will buy coz he knew that its worth to buy for me coz aku sgt gunakan barang2 aku wlpn bag or kasut aku byk. but, worthy la die na beli ape yg die mampu. kikis ke? tak kan...sbb aku tak mintak.

then aku tersentak lg sekali. sudah menyental. both dah jd ex da pun. tersengih2 aku basuh kasut ni. smbil bilas, my eyes rolling when remembering my latest, muizz. I don't want to put any perception towards him coz.. ahh just give him chance to show himself. he might be full of surprise. or might be do nothing. or anything else. aku btul2 dah tak peduli lg da how my partner do. its more satisfied when doing things by my own.

but from my eyesight, he's a good person. always by my side. eventhough tak berapa na romantic. huahuahua. he's more to friend side-to-side. it takes time. I understand that.

masa jemo kasut tu pulak, I was wondering. is it suitable dgn handbag momoe yg aku tgk smlm. ouch, da dua kali aku ke kedai momoe tu, survey the same handbag but its still there. nowhere. then I closed my eyes, how I wish to have it. sikit je masa lagi. dpt duit tu, aku na beli handbag tu. tanpa kompromi.

at this stage, everything will be buy by myself. no more gift. aku jd benci dgn hadiah. coz I don't believe in things call gift anymore. coz I know, I will never get it anymore. Gift, is a lie. people said, "I'd give you a gift coz I love you, I appreciate you". but, people come and go. where are their promises? where are their appreciation? they still left us. but tak salah menerima kan? menerima ni kind of appreciation jugak.

its worth to buy by urself, trust me.