mcm tuutt punye klinik

baru blk dr dentist.

ah fuck.fuck.fuck.

tu je aku bule kate. bangkai punye klinik gigi.

tampal gigi je pun. fain la, klinik kau tu establish.klinik kau tu serba best bak kate pnduduk bentong neh. kau la dokto yg lembut la,pelanggan kau msti tak komplen punye sbb kau sgt lemah lembut dgn customer kau.

ok.aku admit itu. tp pas setel sume, skali gua na bayar, aittt???!!! RM265?? kau hengat kau ganti kan aku gigi emas ke? ok la.logik kau na cas mahal2 sbb gigi belakang aku tuh buruk teruk. tp kau tak cabut kn. ape yg mahal sgt?

nenek misi kau tuh ckp mahal sbb tampal gigi depan.mahal sbb pakai gum wrna putih. asshole la.baik aku pegi hospital bentong yg mcm super asshole tuh.kalo pegi klinik gigi kl lg super duper asshole.tp memandangkan takkan aku na sumbat gigi lobang aku neh dgn plastesin, maka aku byar la jugak wlpun hati ni menyirap-nyirap mcm air sirap kenduri terlebih ais.

maka, disebabkan mama bekalkan rm100 je, terpaksa la aku tong sndiri lg rm165. babi btul. bkn kedekut, tp da lari bajet da utk pangkor nanti.aip?hahaha. na g jenjalan dlm 2 3 minggu lg.dgn sape?ha, tu yg kite tatau.haha.sensorg kot.tak plan lg.br berangan2.haha.

hush

sedikit kesabaran.

sedikit pengorbanan.

kerana terlalu ingin memahami.

dan tujuannya hanya satu.

aku tidak mahu rasa kehilangan lagi.

thanx.

memories

dear diary.ouh, its a public diary actually.

damn,tatau kenape perasaan ni tibe2 muncul..

feels like upset for something.tp rase2 tak worth kot kalo aku na sit n think bout it.dah, aku tanak sebut2 lg da.sbb everything yg aku kata, akan menjadi satu kesalahan. akan menjadi satu beban utk org laen sedangkan aku pun na org laen tau, yg aku bukan hati batu. kalo la org laen bole dgr..ah.all those things are bullshit.

aku terlalu byk memendam. dr rumah, relationship smpai la life aku. aku terlalu byk memikirkan perasaan org laen. terlalu menghormati keputusan org laen.well,I have to bear with it.

if turn back time,kalo di kenangkan time kt sarawak dulu. mmg best gile. if i said, i eager to be in santubong, well..i got it.aku bkn na kate, na samekan sape2.na differentiate sape2. tp frens lg seronok kot.

dulu, aku ade dzul, az ngn muizz. kami g muzium kucing kt kuching.g pantai damai tgk sunset.amik gmbar.penah gak tgk wayang same2.tp tak ingt cite ape.tgk kt bangunan warna warni tuh.ape name aku pn tak hengat.

every sem mesti pegi jln2. tgk gmbr,mesti miss da moment.

as i remembered, kalo boring2, aku ngn ibnu akan pegi kt ade satu kampung kt tabuan. hujung kampung tuh ade jeti kecik ke sg.sarawak.kami akan pegi sane semate2 na tgk matahari terbenam. ade skali, kami pegi miri n amik mase 15 hours to reach there from kota samarahan. imagine, sampai miri, makan2, rest kt taman ape tah, then balik. taubat aku tanak pegi naek kete da.penat.

tp sume memori n gmbr2 faded away by time. n aku tanak ingt lg da even he gave me to much precious time. die pnah janji, when cuti sem disember tuh, die na bwk g kota kinabalu. but dec tu die da g vietnam.

n that was the last time aku menyelami rase gembire tuh.after that, aku da xpegi jln2 lg da. dunno why, rase cm time pack sgt.bile tibe2 afzal kontek blk,aku ade peluang sikit utk jln2.sekali tu aje afzal ajak pegi teluk chempedak. but then, tade da...

after for a long while, afzal lost kontek. tp bile aku petikel kt ampang, afzal muncul semula. biskot! aku ingt, sesuatu merubah,tp sygnya, aku bkn pilihan afzal.ahaahahhahaha.mampus geli tulis cmnih.byr aku woi.

bile geng2 wana, jimo, trem, ajak perhentian tahun lalu, aku terpakse tolak. begitu juga "night-stand party" di desaru. pun terpakse di abaikan. ntah.ntah.aku tatau mengapa aku terlalu menurut kata.

bkn menurut kata, cume aku mahu perhatian. aku jemu keseorangan mcm nih. aku sepi.aku seronok hidup dgn memories dgn kwn2 yg best gile. jln2 di bumi sarawak, lepak2 with afzal n de gang kt ampang, nightlife,nade,wani. well ekceli, i miss them.

aku sgt bz

fuuh.fuuhh.

*tiup abuk*

da lame tak apdet blog.rase sgt bizi. bizi mcm hell. maklumla,sejak berkarier nih, aku mmg tade mase na on9 bodo2 nih. melainkan aku apdet bisness aku. yela, komitmen bisnes kene titik berat. aset tuh.

restoren wlpn ade pekerja,tp aku big boss, kene gak pantau hari2. dlm bisnes restoren, sbg datuk bandar, aku kene prihatin n selalu tgk ape2 yg perlu kt bndar aku. ha, ikan2 dlm akuarium kt uma pun kene bg makan. kene bersihkan akuarium. kalo tak bizi sgt, aku kene gak tgk2 ladang aku kt lubuk kelubi tuh. yela, na tgk sama ada hasil tanaman da bole harvest ke, menatang na perah susu ke,kutip telo ayam..ish mmg bizi tak terkata la. bizi tak penah suda. ade satu lg bandar na kene pantau. tp bndar tu sepi sikit sbb aku da ejas baek2.tak perlu melawat selalu.

ha da skng ade bajet lebih,aku bukak bisnes baru. tp bisnes ni tak manis sgt dipandang. aku bukak nightclub.ala, club kecik2 je.na tambah pendapatan sikit. pastu td ade sorg datuk bandar, na bg empire die kt aku. jd aku mulekan lg satu sumber pendapatan.

dulu suke gak g cari harta karun kt pulau2,pastu skng da malas sbb bz sgt la.aku xpaham btol la.tah bile kebizines ni na abis.

da la da lame tak berjimba.ish aku tak kire, 3 jun nanti aku na g tgk wyg gak.. Lagenda Budak Setan.

syg...jum.

kakak's engagement

congrats to my luvly sista, kakak.

luv yah.

I Don't Believe You

I don't mind it
I don't mind at all
It's like you're the swing set
And I'm the kid that falls
It's like the way we fight
The times I've cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passion's there
So it's got to be right
Right?

No I don't believe you
When you say don't come around here no more
I won't remind you
You said we wouldn't be apart
No I don't believe you
When you say you don't need me anymore
So don't pretend to
Not love me at all

I don't mind it
I still don't mind at all
It's like one of those bad dreams
When you can't wake up
It looks like you've given up
You've had enough
But I want more
No I won't stop
Because I just know
You'll come around
Right?

No I don't believe you
When you say don't come around here no more
I won't remind you
You said we wouldn't be apart
No I don't believe you
When you say you don't need me anymore
So don't pretend to
Not love me at all

Just don't stand there and watch me fall
Because I, because I still don't mind at all

It's like the way we fight
The times I've cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passion's there
So it's got to be right,
Right?

No I don't believe you
When you say don't come around here no more
I won't remind you
You said we wouldn't be apart
No I don't believe you
When you say you don't need me anymore
So don't pretend to
Not love me at all

I don't believe you

21 wishes

hai.

today is my 21st birthday.

being so upset for whole day coz I dun have anyone to celebrate with, instead of talking with.

just simple FB wishes. thanx guys. really appreciate it.

and to my dearest sayang, thanx for accompany me for the whole day. its a free call.i dun mind to "bergayut" with you till the phone explode like a bomb beside our ear.

wish 1

afzal,jimo n wana call me at 130 am. but tgh bergayut with lalink.so dorg wait till 3 am. unfortunately, aku tgh bertugas plak time tuh. dorg tunggu lg smpai kul 4. n thats make no sense aku na gelak2 dlm keadaan mamai.

thanx coz korg try to cheer me up. really love you.

korg nyanyi lagu besday in 3 version tu mmg funny.versi tamil, cina n english tuh mmg unik.hahah. tp sygnye,aku sgt moody at that time.sory dearest.

then korg try na maen gitar utk aku. tp sbb korg sgt kelam kabut.aku xpaham ape yg korg cube lakukan.lantas emosi tak terbendung.sory again. luckily ptg tadi korg call lagi.thanx for the "Statik". suare jimo n afzal sgt sweet. n i know, wana yg maen gitar.thanx guys.

wish 2

i thought my family just forget bout my day. hehe.tu yg upset the whole day. tak sangke pas 7 ptg tuh, mama, babah n ina dtg uma tok bawak kek n mee goreng mamak.touching sungguh.

wish 3

the mad stalker.ibnu call dr USA. wish me and as usual, maen kan gitar. agak touching, tp the fact is, aku takkan kembali pd kamu. thanx for the "Semua Tentang Kita". I heard it and I understand.thanx.

thanx for everyone yg da wish.syg sgt.

early celebration

smlm my baby dtg bentong.

memandangkan becoming 18 may nanti die terpakse kerje, so die amik ari ahad utk selebret besday aku.

tp disebabkan si loser punye besday, jd sambutannye agak loser jugak.

di grounded dan xbole tinggal tok sensorg, mama suh puteh pegi rumah tok terus. mama kasik can kami berdua selebret kt uma tok.syg belanje KFC black pepper yg baru tuh.fuuhh.fuuuhh..pedasshh.... fani muke syg mkn pedas.hahahaha

tak best jugak,si sayang na jugak makan eskem.kami pun mintak permission kt tok na pegi makan kowpo. tok pun kasik can kami keluar kejap tp b4 kul 430 ptg kene blk sbb time tuh tok minum ptg.

yeay.thanx sayang sbb dtg dr kl semata2 na belanje.. KFC n aiskim?wth?hahahaha.baby mmg besh! adiah masih tertunggak katenye sbb die tade mase lg na pegi beli. tape syg, sy tak kisah lgsung.tade adiah pun tape.

kamu la adiah terbaik spjg hidup sy.

luv you syg.

sayang...heh

syg, sy da lame na pegi yg kat shah alam tuh...yg lampu warne warni tuh..

da lame sy na pegi situ.

sy mengharap sgt..

depressed

baru hari ke-4 aku berkhidmat utk tok.well, honestly, now i really understand kenape da dua org gaji tok lari.

aku phm,org tua. memory pun da low, dgn kerenah mcm2.nak2 lg die sgt2 uzur yg tak larat na wt ape2 dgn sdri. even minum air dr cawan pun aku yg kene suapkan.ok, it doesn't matter pun.

tp da hampir 33 jam aku tak titow. mlm2 die mmg salu bangun. kul 3 msti minum nesvita. mlm2 b4 aku tak rase penat sgt coz aku dpt lelap mate n die pn xbyk kerenah sgt.tp since mlm kelmarin, mcm2 plak kerenah die.

salu bangun kul 3 tu tuka pampers die, minum nesvita n die kontiniu titow.tp aku tau, die salu tak titow.org tua kn...mmg susa na titow. tp salu plak kn, aku da siap2 cuci, tuka pampers die, bg nesvita, eh ade lg request...panggil just na tnye cawan tutup ngn piring tak.ah?

da 4 hari.hari2 aku menangis mengharap ade org dgr. puteh je yg salu jd mangsa keadaan.die sdri pun tak pat na bantu. tp atleast, aku release.kalo aku simpan,tah2 aku pn lari mcm bibik2 b4 this ek.